Archive for May, 2007

After almost a year of bliss the inevitable is now occuring…I have to spend time with my ex mother-in-law! My daughter is dancing in a recital and my ex’s mom is coming up here from texas to see her dance. My husband, best friend, her sister, one of my employees, ex-husband, and his mom will all be attending this little thing…should be a hoot! Then we will all stand there like one big happy family and tell Ami how wonderful she did, then they will go and do their thing with Ami and we will go and do our thing w/o Ami. I was really close to this woman until her son told her all sorts of nasty things about me. Maybe I was never really close to her at all, she just tolerated me cause I married her child…I guess I will never know. She has never been outwardly mean or anything but polite to me since we split up, but there is a coldness now that wasnt there before.

I want to look good when I see them. She hasnt seen me since I’ve lost the last 50 pounds. I wqant them to think I look damn good. It is awesome that Chris thinks I look good and his is the only opinion that reeally matters, but I want them to know how much happier I am now that I dropped all that weight( and the 500 or so punds I dropped when I got divorced!). Love is wonderful for the apperance…I care how I look now. I wear makeup everyday not just once in a while. I wear clothes that fit me. I do my hair rather than just putting it up all the time. I wear jewelery and do my nails. I am a completely different person than I was when I was with their family. I like me. I like my life. For the first time in…ever I have everything I need and want. I am happy! I like the way that feels,and I want them to know I am different. Fufilled. Alive!

My husband hates my ex…but only because my ex hated him first, that and the fact that my ex would rather drive a big new expensive four wheel drive pick up than pay to take care of our daughter. I hate him for that as well! Selfishness it should be one of the seven deadly sins…wait!..it is also known as greed and glutony. Better or worse I am tied to these people for at least the next 10 years or so. But at the rate the ex is going Ami wont want anything to do with him…she doesnt now, but those pesky courts ask that she still go and see him once and awhile. At least the contact is minimal…lessens the damage he could do. oh well…it will be over soon enough…’til next year then we do this all over again!!! Somebody kill me now.

I just got my nails done, and I cant decide if the nail polish I have picked out is pretty or scary. It is this sheer red with gold glitter in it. But when they do multiple coats, it gets kinda dark. I have been just getting half of my nail done, but not today!…nope I decided whole nail. Now, I’m not so sure.I like it…I think!

We are getting a house! Soon I hope. we met with a mortgage guy yesterday and did all the scary information stuff, now we just have to find the house of our dreams. that should be the easy part, right?!?(I know…NOT!!!) I hope you post lots of pictures with your bathroom being cleaned. It might not happen again for awhile. And I’m not doing it!!! Love you so much!

This fucking sucks… I just saw the schedule for NBC 2007 – 2008 lineup… Studio 60 is not on there.. I am surprised the show didn’t get a second chance since there are so many un explainable heaping piles of shit out there in TV land which survived a hell of a lot longer…

*extends finger to NBC* I would be that Las Vegas gets cancelled this year too since James Caan has left.. since well the show in a way revolves around him.. in a god father kind of way…

Why is it That the more in the wrong you are the more vocal you are about how I am being unfair to you? Do you feel the need to be protected from big bad me? Is the husband bear mistreated by the mean ol’ wife bear? Can you not “handle” me? Get over it you soulless, unoriginal asshole!!! *wicked grin*

Love you tater bear!!! *kiss kiss kiss*

My thoughts.. by the souless asshole.. sponsered by tater salad…

Ok, Vanessa calls me up trying to be all sweet, but no! I get drilled for not being sweet back. I believe I just answered the phone and said what do you want? or what? Or yes dear… then it is lecture time about how she was trying to be sweet and how I was being an asshole.. so the name calling began… I kept calling her the same name over and over because well that is just the way it is .. so she calls me a soul less asshole and tells me I am unoriginal…

Love you too babe!!

I am thinking toothbrushes in toilets still might be a good idea!!

I mean really, If I put a bullet between my eyes will the nagging,throbbing,maddening pain go away? NO!!! Why go to all that trouble anyway? Why is it that everyone seems to have gotten up on the wrong side of the bed on the same day? Is it in the water? The air?

Chris and I are beginning the process of buying our first house.. Oh my god! Blood type…DNA…First born. Just kidding. there are a lot of things to think of before you start this process. All the things that could go wrong with a property,earnest money, to inspect or not to inspect( Iknow, I know!…always get an inspection!!!),what neighborhood, schools,taxes,neighbors. Today was not the day to do this…MY BRAIN HURTS! Oh, well.

I have found myself recently been quoting Ron White from his “Tater Salad” DVD often. This brought to mind an interesting topic…

Why is it that poeple would rather kill themselves than be truley happy? Why do so many people stay in unhealthy, abusive, and/or downright wrong relationships? Because they are scared to be alone? What is so bad about being alone, that people are willing to sacrifice themselves to salvage a situation that never stood a chance in the first place? I myself spent twelve years in a relationship with the wrong man(I was wrong for him because I don’t have a penis and balls.)! But I have to coexist on this earth with this person. So, why be hateful and bitter? What does that accomplish? Does it make you feel better? Toxic, poisounus,hateful individuals with nothing better to do than to think of all the bad qualities you have and exploit them. Point them out to others. Just in general make you look as bad as they are! Misery loves company and when you take crap from these low lifed persons…you are giving them your power. I am no longer giving that uo

I want you to know I work all day, then I come home and take care of your ass!!! Yeah, so I might forget to charge my own IPOD, but if you loved me and you were a considerate spouse you would just say…”I haven’t seen you charge that in a few days, I will just charge it for you.”…But no!.. all you do is make fun when I am too busy caring for you and our daughter to remeber such a trivial thing. What kind of marriage do we have when I cant count on you to take care of all things electronic? After all you knew I was having a bad week…think ahead…I do when it comes to you… ( I’ll teach him the meaning of the phrase “Most of the time!”).

And if you are the god of electric things…why is it that you are always having your katana die?!? Maybe if you would charge it once ad a while it might not die everyday. Katana needs food too! maybe that is how you know what was wrong with IPOD.

I can’t wait to have your baby!!!we need to work on that! but if you are not careful I will kick your ass so bad you will not be able to impregnante me *evil grin*
what is this shit you expect me to tell my doctor that I am not taking my medicine and forgetting to take care of myself…why would I do such a thing? oh wait…I wouldn’t! He doesnt need to know those things…only where it hurts and what meds am I out of. Know your role!!!

After careful consideration I think I will exit the thorn in my side slowly over the course of the next month. Getting fewer and fewer times to be with me might be a better course of action. *hee hee*

On a final note, thank you for putting up with my shit these last few days…They were rough for me, and I finally feel better. So, I’m sorry for being so hard to live with! You rock!!! I’m still kickin your ass

Honey bunny… if you charge things they will work… The iPod would have been much more pleasant with you if you had let it charge up before you wanted to use it again.. here is a hint.. when the battery in the top right hand corner of the iPod is red and looks like it is low.. that means iPod needs food….

( I am so getting my ass kicked for this….)

I am sorry you have been having a bad day the last couple of days. I am sure the news about a certain employee makes you happier… I know it would make me happier if I were in your shoes..

You really need to come back into the store and check out the counters.. they look so much better with the new monitors and all of that clutter gone! I remember when you reminded me how much I hated crap all over the counter…. and the bosses wanting me to put more impulse items on the counter… why do I not have the counters covered in impulse stuff? Simple customers have to have room for their things too… hee hee

I love you so much, and I am so happy to hear about what the doctor told you. I was very concerned about that if you were to have one in the oven.. You mean so much to me and I love you very much.. I hope you are enjoying your iPod I am sure I would be enjoying mine if I didn’t leave it at home..

Slug bug! no slug backs…

Why the fuck should I bother? Nothing works the way it is supposed to anyway. So really, why bother? If you have no expectations, then you are never let down, right? I think that is the way to go from now on. Then if something good actually happens, I can be pleasantly surprised.

I have no IPOD so I can’t even ignore the world for a few minutes and listen to some tunes. ARGH!!!*jumping up and down screaming* Today (and yesterday ) officially suck!!! Can I have a do over? Remember those from recess? If you didnt like the way you did you could just call for a do over, and then have a second chance…I want a do over!!! Only I want to do over the last 12 years… but then would anything really be all that much imporved? I am in a mood! I give up trying to make my mood improve! I am just gonna be a raging bitch, and people will just have to deal with me.

Have you ever thought maybe things would go a lot smoother if you did everything yourself?!? well, I’m here to tell you…you are wrong! just thought I would save you some headache.