Archive for July, 2007

After seeing the Transformers movie Saturday night Vanessa brought it to my attention, her ex was unaware she liked Transformers. I have known Vanessa longer then her ex and I did not know she liked the Transfomers either. *shrugs*

Anyway.. she has been shopping feverishly for an orange digital camera which she finds justification in purchasing since I upgraded to my notebook computer… She needs to just sit tight on this camera thing and good things could happen… we are after all… getting our place … *sighs* women .. I just do not understand why they have to be so … difficult.

For example, I am hanging out at my mothers house at the moment just to keep away from the in-laws since they are in super annoying mode, and I already want to kill them and their fucking dog. I figured mom’s house was a great choice for hiding out. Besides I found more things I needed to download so that works out also. She comes home from work and is all huffy and puffy towards me for reasons beyond my understanding… I asked her three times what was wrong, and she would not tell me.

I asked three times… more then enough … you don’t want to tell me then at least lose the attitude..

Women … anyway …. I think that is it for now..

Ok, last night Chris and Ami came home after spending the day together with his mom. I thought it was a nice thing and they all had fun. Chris bought me a new T-shirt as did his mom. Very nice of them, huh?!? Well, then I find out that I got the shirt from chris because he knew I would be kicking his ass about what he bought for him on the same shopping trip. With his mother’s encouragement(thanks, mom! ) he purchased a new laptop…no his was not in disrepair…no it was no old…or slow(he just bought a butload of RAM like two months ago)…he just went “Pretty!…Shiny!…I NEED! and thus with no hesitation he purchased a new laptop. AND ALL I GOT WAS A STINKIN T-SHIRT!!! Just kidding about the T-shirt bit. But the laptop, (i only wish that were a joke)no. He made fun of me for wanting to get a new digital camera because I found one I like better( after it is orange, and the one I have is boring black)…I mean I would give him the old one(seeing as to how he doesnt have one). And its not like I am asking him to spend HIS money or anything. He would kick my ass if the tables were turned and I spent that much money w/o even a call to let him know. He even came to my work and didnt tell me about it. He talked to me on the phone several times and nothing. And he really thinks a funny T-shirt is gonna get him outta this shit storm? He has a lot to learn ’bout bein’ married !!! Yes we are supposed to move in like a week and half…and we have a lot of expenses coming up, but I have been told not to worry. How can I not worry when He goes and buys a fuckin’ laptop right before we are going to move out?!? We have a list of other thigns we want to get for our place, not to mention deposits and moving costs. Buying all the shit you need when you 1st move (trash cans, shower curtains, garden hose, stepladder( i am short), cleaning products, laundry shit, and groceries) that is just the ittle stuff that can’t wait a few weeks. Fasteners, and zip ties( ),light bulbs,push pins, nails, laundry hampers, couches, a new bed, and a 42 in. flat panel LCD TV. And how are we supposed to do all this when he goes and blows all the money on a laptop he neither needed, or we had discussed. Now he is going to say we did discuss it and I said ok I see where you are going with it and I agreed that it wasn’t a bad idea. But I thought we were talking a few months down the road not yesterday!!!

Jewelery and flowers are how you suck up when you have fucked up on such a grand scale…everyone knows that one! Not T-shirts. There is nothing in the “I’m in the doghouse and want out!” manual that says a T-shirt will make her laugh and get you back in the main house…maybe even back in the bedroom! A T-shirt will not get you to the back door! Much less through it! Zales I think even has a catalog that is sectioned by how bad you blew it! Just ask for the “I’m a dorkfish!” book and pretty much anything in there will be more helpful than a fuckin T-shirt!

I still dont have a laptop though! Love you baby!!!

I would like to start off by wishing all who care a Happy Fourth of July! Fireworks, BBQ’s, The Burn Unit…All fond memeories of the day to come. Don’t forget the E.R.! I can’t wait to go out and see fireworks tomorrow, I have loved them ever since my father took me every year to the Fort @Leavenworth to see their display. we went every year til I was eight and he was to sick to take us anymore. It was the one holiday my dad seemed to enjoy. He would get as jazzed as we would. We would go early, take a blanket, get food and sit and listen to music and eat…play with kids from neighboring blankets, then @10pm the show would start. No dinky little 15 minute extravaganza…no,no,no! It would last almost an hour with the finale lasting ten minutes or more. It was magical. Then I would listen as my dad bitched about how it took just as long to get out of the parking lot as it took for the firework display, and my mom telling him”…Joseph, calm down it isn’t that bad at least we are moving some! Plus, you will wake the kids(we were never really sleeping!)!” Ah, The memories!

My asshole ex would never get off his lazy ass to do anything for the 4th, unless I threw a fit and said I would go alone (girl, alone, late @night, with kid…you get the point), he would try and talk me out of it…threaten me, and then when I was tired of him I would agree not to go. In the last 12 years he took us to see fireworks like three times. All the rest it was go outside and see whatever you can from the yard.

I look forward to this holiday every year. There are no cards to forget. No gifts expected. No having to put up with stuck up family members who think they are better than you and secretly judge you behind your back. Just fun and relaxation. I can’t waitfor tomorrow to get here. I have a big expectations for this year…Maybe I shouldn’t jinx it