Archive for July, 2008

Last night my sweetie and I went on a date. we went to smiley’s golf and played mini golf.ist of all let me say that we are ubercompetetive! almost to the point of ridiculousness…almost *grins*!!! then let me say we are GIANT cheaters!!! especially chris!!! but we had so much fun…that is until we went to play the second course. on the first hole i went to hit my ball through the mouth of the skull, and it hit something…then the something moved. i yelped at first, then i thought it was a bunny (it had grayish fur). when i bent down to look at what it was i was shocked to find out it was a raccoon! as this thought dawned on me peple that were chipping balls on the practice green told us it was a raccoon as well. it looked like a baby…so i went to tell the golf shop people and they already knew and were “taking care of it!”

i looked at the guy and asked him if they were gonna kill it. he looked over at me and asked if i really wanted to know…all the while chris was shaking his head no and begging the guy not to tell me the truth. the employee made the comment that they had rabies and sharp claws and teeth and that it would attack someone and rip them to shreds. at that point chris was about to hit the guy for not lying to me. i started to get upset and the guy asked me if i wanted to keep it. of course that answer is pretty obvious! the tears were welling up so i said we needed to leave, i couldnt have watched them trap it and take it away for disposal. chris offered to go and cuss the guy out for upsetting me, but that would not have spared the life of the raccoon so we left.

on the way to the car we noticed a puppy in a car with the windows only down about an inch! it is like 100 degrees at the moment during the day! he was panting so hard. so I called animal control…i also happened to mention the raccoon. i thought they might help! then i got to thinking that if they killed the raccoon before the officer got there it would be useless. so i had to call the pro shop and tell them bout the animal control officer coming…i figured if the guy went all the way out there and they had already killed the little guy the officer might be a bit mad. they tried to tell me that they called and noone answered, but i called the police dispatcher. hee hee so i,hopefully, spared the life of the litttle critter…at least that is how i want to think of it! hopefully the owners of the dog got a stern talkin to as well! maybe i should lock them in a car on a really hot day!

Yesterday also began shark week on the discovery channel…I LOVE SHARK WEEK!!!

This was my little post to inform the lovely wife… I made some changes to the back end of the site.. updated some security settings, etc.

So when you log into the the site, and the log in screen is different and the dashboard looks a bit strange.. and you are about to go.. “FIX IT!”

Remember…. I told you about how things changed a bit… Posting should be the same… etc.

I like to read “Dear Abby” and her counterpart “Dear Margo”. they are a mother daughter duo who each write an advice column in separate publications. but i get a kick out of the pathetic people who write in asking almost rhetorical questions and they actually want an answer! i mean it is so ridiculous that these persons do not know that the solution to their own troubles is so obvious it isn’t funny! a woman asking what she should do about a husband who is more concerned with what his mother has to say than his own wife and children…but neither of them want a divorce!?! I’m sorry if chris put that much energy into feeding into his familys dislike of me…i would have no trouble saying bye bye. yeah it would be painful to loose the man i love and the father of my children…but if his family doesn’t like me and he is more worried bout loosing them instead of worrying bout loosing me. they can have him!!! yeah your family is your past, but your wife and children are your present and future. your family will die at least 20-50 years before you do…you would be alone if not for your wife and kids. no brainer in my opinion!

i miss ami so much…but her birthday was a blast! she included me in everything her and friends did. it was so fun, and i know wont happen too much longer so it was very special to me. i cant believe it has been ten years…she’ll be leaving me before i know it. nessie sad!

Back in the day when I worked on computers all the time, provided tech support, and basically computers were my whole world. *ahem* when I was single and would spend all day and night on the computer…

Now years later, I find from time to time there are some real simple things which I tend to forget to check. For example, my desktop has been acting like a real piece of shit and I could not figure out why. Ram tested out fine, CPU, HHD, etc.. still loaded like shit, ran like shit.. couldn’t even stream on you tube and I was getting really pissed off.

I was on the verge of purchasing a new desktop… when I happened to strike up a conversation with some co workers on the problems I was having with the computer. One of them mentioned checking the chipset drivers on the motherboard, as well Windows (to no surprise) likes to install their version of the drivers instead of the ones by the manufacturer. This can cause a computer to run like shit.. A light bulb went off in my head and I was like OF COURSE!! then I followed with, WHY DIDN’T I FUCKING THINK OF THAT!!!!!

In the old days I would have thought of that… *sighs* it’s shit like that which makes me miss being a tech again. *frowns*

Just wanted to share that with you…

I am on day 1 of my four day vacation from work. The nice part of the vacation is I actually get some alone time to do what I feel like doing. Things like playing PS2, playing on the computer, watching TV, or just playing with my balls.

Nothing against the family but with the kid out of town and the wife working two of the four days I get a vacation to myself. Sometimes those are the best kind. (thus far I have played with my balls, then later played on the computer.. not in any particular order)

I think I am going to redo the media server, it is running like shit, and frankly it is annoying the shit out me. Runs like shit.. and yes I checked the drivers and chipset.. *smiles*

I was hoping to have my truck back by now. My uncle told me it would take one to two weeks and here we are on week three or four and nothing yet. *laughs* I would be irritated with that bit of information but apparently the guy is doing “extra” stuff to make the truck run like new.

If you take into account that I am getting a four thousand dollar job done for around 1500 plus minor other things I asked to be done, I can’t really bitch.

The kid had her 10th birthday yesterday. She had her first sleep over the night before last. Instead of one little girl running around I had two. It was ok though, I just hung out in my office and managed to get some stuff done which I needed to finish up on before I went on my “mini” vacation.

Naturally she was spoiled to all hell thanks for her mother, and my mother. I am sure her grandparents will spoil her more when she gets to Texas.

Last night Ami and her friend wanted McDonalds for dinner *ick* after the girls ate, and we dumped her friend off at her house, Ami and I went to pick up dinner for wife and I.

I walk up to the bar at TGI Friday’s and I tell the bar tender, “Today is my daughters birthday, and I she needs a beer.” The bartender looks over at Ami, and starts laughing. I tell him I am here to pick up my order. When he returns he presents me my order, and gives Ami a root beer.

I figure he deserved a tip for that one. It was after all, pretty damn funny..

I have been watching the “Two Corey’s” this year with the wife. The show is kind of funny watching Haim and Feldman act like a couple of whining pussies. Reminds me why I stopped talking to a few people after high school. Seriously it is funny and pathetic at the same time. Apparently the show is going to get cancelled after this year, which is fine with me since I have other things I could instead like … think about what I said earlier… balls…

I watched the trailer to Sin City earlier… I have forgotten how much I enjoyed that movie. I think I will put it on the list of movies I need to watch… the list continues to grow as I have at least ten DVD’s I have picked up that I have yet watched…

Back to nerd world … if you use remote desktop a lot… check out Ultra VNC.. In my opinion it is one of the best remote desktop software’s out and appears to be very compatible with 2k, and XP..

Question.. why in the blue hell does itunes insist on thinking I want to install fuckin safari on my pc? It’s looks like i.e… smells like i.e. … it annoys me like i.e. please stop fucking asking me!! GOD DAMMIT JOBS!!!

Dammit!! I was going to add something but I forgot what I was going to say!! ARGH!!! edit: I remember now… it was the bit about Ami’s birthday.

Well I think that is it for now … I am going to go do something more constructive.. or destructive.. depends on how one looks at it … *laughs*

It is Ami’s birthday today…I can’t beleive that she is ten years old!!! an entire decade has gone by since she came into the world. she was born at 3:15 in the morning, and every year at that time i go in and wake her up because that is when i first held her and it is a special time for just the two of us that we both enjoy. Last year she was with her father and i didnt get to spend that time with her and so she requested that i do that with her again. she had a friend over and i couldnt get to her without going over her friend sleeping in the bed in front of Ami. i tried to wake her and tell her happy birthday, but she just nodded and went right back to sleep. but I was up and thinking of her. I held her for the first time then. i was glad she asked me to do it again, but i’m sad she was too tired to actually wake up for it.

We are going to the water park today and gonna have a family dinner with toni and ami’s friends with cake and all kinds of good stuff for her birthday. she is getting WAY too many presents, but all of them are necessary (says toni at least). i even had a bunch of fun wrapping them all cutsey and pretty. she is such a girly girl…I don’t know how that happened! when she was born, I told everyone no pink…that lasted all of two seconds. when she was first born they still had girl and boy specific diapers…pink fuckin diapers! i was very glad when they stopped selling those! I want her to wake up so we can have fun! i guess i’ll just have to wait for her to get up on her own!

last night i couldnt beleive it, but when i went to the bathroom…it was green! so green the water and everything was green as well! i didnt have, um, digestive issues, just a normal BM but then when i got up, i was shocked! it was as green as grass. i didnt even eat anything green yesterday (besides a few green peppers on my pizza). it was weird!

on chris’s site he was talking bout how he only got a few hours sleep on thurs. night, but i got the same…i cant sleep alone anymore. and because of my sheer exhaustion yesterday sucked hard core! everything seemed to bug me i was so tired i wanted to cry and i was seriously dragging all day long. who knew so little sleep could account for such misery. i used to not sleep much more than that on a normal night…but i have gotten used to at least six hours of sleep during the week and more like 8-10 on weekends.

the new cat kept me up off an on last night. he would meow and,me being the considerate partner that i am, i didnt want chris to wake up so i would pet him for a few minutes and calm him down. then at one point he decided to walk onto my chest and sit down! i like the cat and all, but he weighs 17 lbs! when u r trying to breathe…that is a ton on your chest!!! and all because he didnt want to lie between us so he could get attention from chris!!! if he werent so cute…(the cat…and chris too)i would give him the boot!

i got some really cool stuff for ami for her bday! i got the day off work, and i got some really cool shit planned! i hope she will enjoy her bday as much as i have had fun figuring out what to do for her…it’s not everyday that a little girl turns 10. we are gonna have so much girly fun, plus she will be going to texas two days after her bday! i am gonna miss her soooo much. 11 days with no doodle bug…sad nessie! i am trying to figure out if i will bake her cake or buy one. i am gonna make meatloaf and mac n cheese for dinner, i think. that is some of her favorite stuff. maybe chicken and mashed potatoes and peas. chocolate cake…definately chocolate cake. maybe even brownies. i am having fun planning her bday.

I was noticing earlier that i had 10 voicemails…so i started listening to them. in the midst of all these messages there is one from the osawatomie police department…ok, now it had my attention…they found my ex-husbands cat,Jenny. she normally travels with him in his truck, but she escaped like two or three weeks ago and he couldnt catch her. well they left me a message like 10 days ago so i am fearing she has been adopted,but i dont know (when i called to see if they had her the animal control guy wasnt there and the cop on duty said she wasnt on the list.) the animal man will be in after 8 this morning, so i called my ex and told him and i think we will both be calling down there today to see if she is still there.

Ami has been very upset about this whole thing,she has broke down more than once bout her sadness over Jenny’s disappearrance. then over her sadness that she may have been adopted out by someone else. i keep telling her at least we know now she is alive and that she didnt get eaten or run over by a car…or any number of other things that could have happened to a pampered pet that is suddenly forced to fend for itself.

Boy,the numbers on the clock sure are moving slow!!! i am so anxious to know if they have here there…what sucks is that if they dont have her there,i will be the one to break it to her and then have to comfort her all over again. that will suck!

well, update!

she’s dead…they put her to sleep cause i didnt check my messages. that’s what i get! dont know if im gonna tell ami the whole truth or not yet…i havent ever lied to her! i just dont know if i can tell her the truth. i already hate myself…i couldnt bear for her to hate me too! but im sure her father will let her know its all my fault. i was so happy last night, i should have never told ami till i knew where the cat was and that she was alive and on her way back home. Ami’s pain is my fault,christopher’s pain is my fault, Jenny’s death is my fault, i even managed to devastate my honey too during all of this (he didnt know jenny, but it happened 2day so it can be tied in)! I am a one woman wrecking ball,dont come near me or I will wreck your chances of ever being happy…it is one of the only things i’m good at.

we finally got someone to haul away the old van today! bye bye! its so nice to have a nice clean driveway,free of shitty non running cars! of all the shitty cars to own, that van was actually a good purchase. it lasted three months and for what we paid it cost less than renting or having a new car payment. plus, it was better than the jeep i got last year and was only able to drive through the summer. i hope to never go through summer again with no a/c and windows that are unable to roll down! we will soon have the truck and can get it right up next to the house, and maybe soon after that…in the garage! wow what a trip that will be!!!

We got a new stove yesterday…it is so cool! it is backlight and a ceramic surface. it also self cleans and has dual cooking surfaces and a sensor to tell when it is still hot. it is the coolest stove ever…well, if it was gas then it would be perfect. but i love it none the less. when they called yesterday to deliver it, they gave us a time window and then it started pouring rain out. we thought they would postpone the delivery, but they showed up, soaking wet, and they almost couldnt get the stove into the garage because of the old van was parked too close to the door opening to fit the stove in. but they got it in and the old one hauled away to the junkyard. i even got to use the stove today!