Archive for November, 2008

It is like asking chris for a kidney to get him to tell me what he wants for birthday, father’s day or xmas gifts. so when he actually gives me ideas, I tend to get him what he asks for. so he tells me he wants a UNICRON transformer to go with his very large collection. So i go on ebay (I dont have an ebay account, but my mother in law does. so she lets me use hers.) to find what choices i have and I bid on one…I created an account to place this bid. this is the one thing chris really wants, and I am super excited bout seeing his face when he opens it.

when we were on the way to dinner she presented chris with his “bday” present (after she had already gotten him a drill…that was supposed to be his bday gift)…it was UNICRON!!! she said she had seen that it had been looked at on ebay and she thought chris was looking to buy it for himself. so she bought it for him. a few problems with that theory. I had only been looking at it like two days before thanksgiving (thursday being day 3 and the day the auction ended), I’m so mad she totally stole my thunder. that is the only gift he really gives a shit about now. i gave him a bunch of small things rather than one or two large gifts this year and the fact that she waited till after the gifts had all been done and everything, it felt like she was being sneaky.It was supposed to be my gift…she stole it from me. she couldn’t bother to be a part of the birthday dinner i wanted to do and then she steals the one gift he wants more than anything.

chris, of course, feels it was just a misunderstanding. his dear ol’ mum could never be up to no good. i tried to get her to participate when we celebrated the bday and she didnt want to. but i think she wanted to be the one who gave the coolest gift. Then he kept telling me how bad she felt bout the whole thing. the only thing she said to me was asking if i bid on her account then we would buy that one cause she didnt want to get a bad rating. but it was ok if i got a bad rating. what i did was told her i lost the auction, but i made a fake account and outbid myself before the auction was over. at least her rating is safe!

at least he had a good birthday and he got the gift he wanted

Of course my honey bunny had to say (after not having posted for some time now) something about how he found a way to talk easier to people on facebook. BIG surprise!!! i like to tease him about his facebook addiction. he spends way too much time on facebook. but then again i think any time is too much on there. not that i have been on here very often lately.

i almost have all my xmas presents bought. we are not really buying for anyone but Ami. money is a bit tight and the job situation is always tenuous at best. Xmas is gonna kinda suck this year ami is gonna be gone for the entire xmas vacation so we are going out of town.

Happy Thanksgiving, y’all!

I hate them! the family…the food…the drama! who needs me.

my ex-husband thinks he can raise MY daughter better than i can. he would fold after one week with her. I dont think he has spent two weeks with her all by himself since she was born. I however have done nothing but that. he has disappeared for sometimes 2 months at a time. then when there is a problem he wants to charge in and bring his ideas to fix it. all he knows is my way sucks and is wrong…natch! he makes his little phone calls and screams and yells then when it is under control he will feel like he made it better.

but is he the one doing all the work every day? working 50 hours a week and then cleaning the house and doing the shopping, paying the bills and going through folders , agendas and backpacks everyday…sending emails to make sure your kid isn’t lying about turning in her shit. cause her father was unable to go sit in the cafeteria and eat a fucking donut with his kid on donut with dad day. My damn kid wont even tell her damn father that she wants to alternate years with her father and stepdad. she is afraid of how her father will take it!!! after all the times he has let her down and she is worried what it will do to him. he doesn’t deserve that kid!

my alma mater . I spent four years of my life there. met the man of my dreams, some of my very closest friends, and several monumental events that i shall not name here. yeah there were some negative things, but without those how can you judge the good the good stuff?

my trip down memory does have a purpose…chris and I were watching a show and we saw our school on a promo for the ten o’clock news saying something bout somebody being in critical condition or something or another…you know its always cryptic and confusing so you’ll tune it to get the whole story. anyway the news come on and what had happened was some retarded black kid had gotten into the 12 feet end of the pool and (in the retard’s words) had drowned. obviously he had ALMOST drowned cause he couldn’t swim. and the mother said she was surprised that there wasn’t a teacher with her son at all times in the pool area seeing as to he was special needs. well, I’m calling him retarded but besides the fact that he looked like a retard he was not technically retarded. he was in regular public school and he may have had some kind of learning disability or something but he was otherwise normal. and he hadn’t been given swimming lessons. He’s in high school for god’s sake if he is so damaged that he doesn’t know to avoid water that is 12 feet deep when he cant swim (1st of all she is a shitty parent for not explaining that whole drowning thing before now and she should quit her job and home school to make sure he properly cared for if he needs a 24 hr. nurse by his side to prevent him from swallowing water when it gets in his face)then a teacher standing next to him isn’t going to be able to protect him from her stupidity. what will probably come out is that the “special needs” that he has is probably ADHD or dyslexia. she will end up getting a million dollars from an already struggling school district when the fault is hers for not teaching her kid to behave and follow fucking directions. I’m sorry he got hurt and almost died, but my taxes will be raised now to pay for him being an idiot. she’ll play the part of the concerned parent just wanting to make sure it doesn’t happen to anyone else’s kid…but what do u want to bet she doesn’t spend any time with that kid of hers. but right now she’s going cha ching!

when I was in high school (at that school) we all had to demonstrate our swimming ability. until the coaches were satisfied that we were strong enough swimmers we were not allowed on that side of the rope. either in the pool or out of it! there was 1 girl in my class who couldn’t swim…the coach had her walk laps the length of the shallow end of the pool back and forth while the rest of us were swimming laps in the deep end. if we were playing polo or something in the shallows she played along. so i find it hard to believe that they just tossed him in and said “Oh look he hasn’t come up yet! Do you think maybe he can’t swim?” Do you think Maybe the kid thought he could magically swim that day?

there is this show called the dish and they do clips from reality shows and this one show is called my big redneck wedding. these two idiots are getting married … oh and they then tell the camera they are brother and sister!?! WTF *eyes popping out of my head* then they go on to explain that his parents adopted her when she was 16 years old so its ok. they were still raised for 5 years as brother and sister before the adoption and another six years before the wedding. who else thinks this is creepy? but since they dont technically share the same DNA it aint illegal. it’s hard to find your soul mate…no wait a minute it’s not hard. what’s hard is admitting to yourself u’ve met ur soul mate in high school. but i digress. these idiots are fucking sickos!!! their kids will have seven toes and twelve fingers if not because of genetics and inbreeding it will be because of their stupidity.

My nickname has been nessie since i was a infant practically. as long as i can remember at least. and i have found the perfect plush nessie toy and i cant fucking get anyone from over there in Scotland to tell me how the hell i can buy it…short of traveling to glastonbury to purchase it from this shop that is called the loch ness exhibition centre. that is the official answer that i got when emailing and calling over there. or try to get someone i know who is going over there to buy me one. I couldn’t believe they told me that! I mean here I am willing to give them my money for their product and they tell me the only way to do that is for me to cross half the United States and then cross the Atlantic and come back for a $20 toy. how compassionate of them! I WILL get that Nessie plush…one way or another.

living in KS sucks ass. three days ago it was almost 80 degrees and now it is almost freezing…literally. i am loosing my ability to handle the cold, it sucks. i like cold if u take away the debilitating pain. once i get used to it it isn’t so bad im just stiff and my back spasms a lot more, but i like winter…until i have to drive in it!!! But i absolutely cant wait for it to snow. the 1st snow of the year is the best. i just hope it happens during the evening after my family is all home for the night. and i hope it happens soon…i plan on throwing snowballs at both of them *evil grins*

As of 2300 hours last night, John McCain conceded defeat. It was gonna happen anyway and rather than going the way of Bush/Gore 2000 and that whole recall election buttfuck of democracy. I have tremendous respect for McCain for stepping out when he knew he lost and not dragging it out. If he were to run again I may even vote for him…if he weren’t running against Obama (or if by some weird chance Obama sucked worse than Bushie). He isn’t a bad guy I just liked the other candidate better this time.

This election was a spanking for the republican party though…they needed 270 electoral votes to win and Obama got 349. If that wasnt a message that this country is ready to go in another direction I dont know what is. the house and the senate are also controlled by democratic majority…I think voters have made it very clear the republicans have had their chance and we need to go in the opposite direction for a while. I am excited about our new president he is our 1st black president and one of our youngest. I think he will do great things.

Ami and I spent a lot of time going over websites that contained info on what each of the candidates stood for and then we narrowed down who we wanted to vote for. it was fun teaching her to learn bout how to pick your candidate by their platform not by who your friends, spouse, teacher, parents, boss, family, or coworkers are going to vote for. she was one of only two people in her class to vote for Obama. Her teacher took the 5th (smart lady), and Ami said there were only a few other people she knew of not voting for McCain…she goes to a catholic school so I wasnt surprised a bit. But I think it was important she learned to make an informed decision now…so in a few years when she gets to vote she can do that knowing everything she needs to.

there is only one more election that Ami will not be voting in…then she will be legally old enough to vote. I’m not ready for all that! she’s just a baby! she cant vote. she cant pick pants and a shirt that match, much less president!!! she’s cute though!

I am always giving way more of myself than i ever get back from anyone else. with everyone, i cancel my own plans to do things for them and then when i ask them to do things for me it isn’t convenient. but then when i get upset I’m the bitch. go figure! it goes back to my strongly held belief that people will let you down if given the chance…the trick is not to give them the chance to disappoint you. selfishness is not cool! but how i end up surrounded by it i will never know.

I’m sure everyone I’m not talking bout will take this personally, and the people whom i am referring to will think it isn’t about them. so it goes…at least i got it off my chest. not that it will make the monster go away. the monster has been very persistent lately. Halloween is all about monsters.

well, last night was fun, but I have to say I am almost a little glad it’s over. we had to get Ami all costumed up three times and while it is fun and I am glad she still lets me be a part of it, it seems like it was so much work this year. I had to work and when we got back to the house Chris and his mother (who both had the day off…Ami even had the day off school. I was the only one who didn’t get to fuck around all day.) had been doing things all day and his mom bought some more yard stuff and Chris put it out in the yard for me. so that was pretty cool. and he had a Halloween surprise for me. It is my favorite holiday…screw xmas I would rather have Halloween any day. so he got me a gift. I love turtles and collect them in many different forms. but since Ami discovered Littlest Pet Shop they are the cutest bobble head animals and they have all these turtles. it is my goal to collect them all(so far I have 9)! the turtle he got me is green with an orange smooth shell standing on all four feet and on her shell it is painted as if it were a jack-o-lantern. she is adorable…her name is jackie.

we carved three pumpkins this year and each of us did a little of all of them. we got some good pictures and we had a bunch of fun. when we lit them up it looked so cool. my favorite was the one that looked like a face, besides the fact that when it was all lit it looked spooky and detailed and really cool i put a witch’s hat on it. so it became a witch pumpkin. I’m thinking of taking some craft pumpkins and finding a design i really love and trying to carve them so I can have them permanently. but half the fun is picking the punkin and carving out with the kid and husband…chris is really good at it! he wouldn’t do it last year cause he said he hadn’t ever done it before. but he’s awesome at it, so he’ll be helping from now on.

ami was a punk rocker…made me laugh and brought back memories. that was THE thing to be when I was a kid. so I was surprised when that was the costume she wanted to put together. but she looked great. chris took a bunch of pics of the transformation process and I am hoping that on his next day off he will be putting them in the photo section. I guess it depends on how much nagging and whining I do. we have almost 200 photos between our two phones. we also went to her class party on Thursday together that was really fun. he got some great pics of her playing games and decorating a punkin.

We decorated the house together, carnival together, carved pumpkins together, trick-or-treated together, went to the party as a family and did everything together for Halloween. It was what I always imagined xmas should be like for a normal family. It has been such a great holiday for me. chris has been there for Ami and I the 3 of us have had a good amount of family time in the last two weeks. it feels really good. Ami is acting differently (in a good way as well), i think she has benefited from all the attention from her daddy and me.