Archive for January, 2009

Well, I had to go back to the doctor…i actually got an appointment with Dr. Peterson. Yeah me! except for the uncomfortableness that took me to the doctor in the first place. the morning of my appointment I get a call from the docter’s nurse and SHE is sick too!!! So now I not only have to reschedule(it’s kinda important that i get in ASAP,so I can’t wait till doc is all better), I have to be late for work and I have an appointment with Dr. Post!!!

So I go in there and she offers me a 7day course of the meds that made me this miserable …I had to pass on that one. Then she gets frustrated with me cause I’m allergic to the med she wants me to be on! Sorry the medicine can cause anyphalactic shock in my system and that that puts a damper on your treatment plan, but…YOU’RE A FUCKING DOCTOR THINK OF SOMETHING ELSE!!!

I really don’t like this dr. post. I’m gonna miss dr. Peterson. and I really need to get working on the whole picking a new doctor thing. but i don’t want to!!! after seeing dr. post i know im gonna end up with a few losers before i get any decent candidates. i hate switching doctors!!!

I am one of the 2 1/2 million guinea pigs!

so far it looks pretty much the same. except i can put little green sticky notes all over my screen…gotta say i like the color choice! and at the bottom of my window, while im online, i can see my desktop wallpaper. but i can also see screen shots of every window i have open instead of just the little two 1/2 word bar. I cant wait till I can put this on puter permanently!

what have i let him turn me into? before ichrist i was just fine using the puter to play solitaire, now i am beta testing windows 7…and I understand what that means! my how things change! but that is a good thing for me.

I have spent the whole last week getting through the stomach flu. vomitting, stomach aches, fatigue, and just general crappy feelingness. I finally get so concerned because i cant seem to get any better so I go to the Dr. and get told…it’s gastroenteritis! translation I have a tummyache. My normal family doctor wasn’t there so I had to see one of her associates and let me tell you she was a real bitch! she snapped at me when I asked her a question about the medicine. she was in a hurry and acted like i was wasting her time. I was so tired i could hardly stay awake. just walking across the room exhausted me!

my normal doc is so nice and knows me…hell she knows my kid and both the ex husband and the current husband i got all three of them going to her after i met her! now my insurance company tells me her and the hospital she practices at are no longer in network. I have to pick a new doctor! Luckily I can keep my specialist or I would be yanking my hair totally out! Every great Dr I have had I have picked by accident. so I guess I need to get the list out…and…uh…pick one *shrugs*! then we get to play pick that dr *to the theme of name that tune*. FUN

today really sucked and I cant wait for it to be over with! can I go to bed yet?

He said I could name it , so that is the name I chose! deal with it!!!

he never listens anyway, i was asking him a question about thee two new shows that are starting up and he was like “oh!” !?! totally not an oh moment i was kinda looking for a yes or no…proof he doesn’t listen. when you ask a person a question it’s kinda nice to get either a positive or a negative response. oh is neither! why bother I think from now on i will only talk to him when he ask me a question, see how much he enjoys that!!! maybe I’ll answer his question with “oh!”.

so chris gets this new puter, right? and i figure I’m gonna be a widow for a few days maybe a week…but it isn’t getting any better! the only time i see the man is when he wants food or sex! he orders both as if in a restaurant. he comes to bed way after I’m asleep most nights unless he has to get up at 7am the next day then he’s usually in bed round midnight or so. I’m ready to break thing just so i can see him a bit! oh, but then he would just have to fix it and he would be in a bad mood when i see him for food and sex! I hate computers!!!

why is there no detox and recovery programs for persons who are unhealthily addicted to computers? they give up everything just to be able to be on the puter, spend every waking minute either on them or thinking or ways to tweak them or upgrade them, talk about them to others like themselves, and find other ways to spend money making them better…faster….smarter…whatever!?! it is an addiction just like drugs if you ask me. it causes you to ignore your family(unless they are willing to come into your office and sit near the desk), waste all your free time, and think you cant possibly do anything for anyone else you are too busy! it’s bullshit!!!

but i guess that makes me an enabler! *sighs* what to do?!?

I was told she would be home yesterday…but then i found out yesterday that she would be home today instead. it would’ve made more sense to let her have a day home before she has to go back to school. but whatever i’m just her mother and main caretaker. I just want her back! i miss her so much! as long as i get her back…

he cant have her again until at least spring break…well if he follows his normal pattern he wont show back up until about then anyway. that’s about 10weeks from now it’s about right.

I miss her!

I wanted a little break…I’ll admit it! but this has been far too long! I miss her. this has been the longest I have been away from here and I dont like it. she’s my baby and I need her with me. she’s having fun though. i was talking to her last night and she sounded like she was having such a good time.

I cant wait to see her new hair do. i have heard so much about it. i bet she looks really cute. i dont remember if they saved the hair or not! i forgot to ak them! argh! the whole reason for grwoing it out so long was so she could donate to locks of love…they had better’ve saved the goddamn hair! if they didnt mail it out at least give it to me so I can send it!

the day after tomorrow…that’s when she’ll be here. i get to hold my little girl in my arms the day after tomorrow. seems far away somehow, but i’ll get through. i have chris and tommy,zena,& lee lee to help keep me company…I think i will make it. I dont have a choice!