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After a handful of hours sleep (gotta be nice and tired tonight cause I will be sleeping alone), we are up and working hard on Thanksgiving lunch. Now normally lunch would be between 1pm-230pm but this year due to the BuyMore being a bunch of greedy assholes, we have to eat before noon. I am (as always) doing waay to much…but am enjoying every minute of it. Even though I am paying the price physically, I wouldn’t do it any differently. I really hope everything turns out good.

I brined my turkey this year, 1st time I tried this technique. I am hoping I rinsed it well enough to prevent my beautiful bird (organic, free range, hormone free 14lb. bird) from tasting salty…I am really worried bout that, but at this point it is too late. It will be what it will be (hopefully that will be DELICIOUS!).

My family “forgot” to invite us to their dinner (not that we could attend with Honey needing to be in bed so early in the day). I find that a bit funny. Oh well, I’m still thankful for them.

There have been people lined up at the BuyMore since yesterday afternoon. Can you believe that?!? How much money do they honestly believe they will save? Is their time not worth anything to them? They will spend their turkey time outside in a store parking lot camping rather than around the table with their loved ones. I saving a hundred dollars or so that big a deal? They could probably get the same deal, if not a better one, online on “Cyber-Monday”. And not have to spend over 24 hours camping out. Idiots!

I hope everyone enjoys their day with their friends and family. Be safe and remember not to drink and drive. It is never worth the risk…no matter how “quick” the drive!!!

Happy turkey day to all…and to all a good night!

I am a person who enjoys a good deal on Black Friday as much as the next person. But I am finding myself conflicted over the course the holiday is taking this year. On the one hand, I have the unfortunate experience of having the money generated (from robbing of me of the holiday) the only income benefiting my family. And at the same time, I feel myself pulled toward the grassroots campaign to keep the day to Friday ONLY!!!
It is difficult to do what I feel is right, when that could hurt Honey. He is having to show up for work at 11pm on Thursday and work till 11am on Friday…but in order to be any good for a 12hr shift starting at midnight he will need to be in bed by 2pm! So we can have a very early Thanksgiving lunch, a brunch or breakfast. The good thing being this year it will just be 3 of us here at my house (Kiddo will be with father). So I can pretty much write the script on how this will go for us, but it sucks to have such a constraint to the day.

The food nerd in me has already got my menu planned, and I have got a way to try and cook my turkey faster. I’m even gonna try and brine the bird…moisture and flavor all in one. I’m looking forward to playing with it. I haven’t gotten to make a single dish for the holidays in almost 5 years!!!

Whatever good or bad comes out of the day it is a special day to enjoy family and friends and be thankful for the blessings in one’s life.

In the news, hardly a day goes by without some news as to the goings on in the search for baby Lisa Irwin. And the most recent news is that the parents have become the main (or possibly only) suspects in her disappearance. With the dogs catching the scent of human decay in the walls of the family home it looks like this case will not have a happy ending. I think I will refer to this problem as “The Casey Anthony effect”. Due to the fact that That bitch was able to get away with murder, more parents who would maybe have paused before acting in such a permanent and cruel fashion, now think they can get away with murder as well.

Now with the Safe Haven laws that all states have, it is possible to get your newborns to a safe place and walk away with no fear of repercussions. But in the state of Nebraska (my neighbor to the north)…ANY child can be left at a hospital. It has happened that people have dropped off their teenagers and driven away. In one instance a father dropped off his entire family (9 kids from age 1 to 17) at a hospital. The Nebraska legislators are calling an emergency session to put an amendment to the law in effect as of the November ballot. But the real question for me is…will this mean that those children could now face a worse fate? Is abuse, neglect and even murder in their future? Instead of making it illegal to abandon them, why do we not provide counseling for the families and further assistance before it gets to that place?!?

As a mother, I know what it feels like to doubt your abilities as a parent, and to get frustrated with your child. But I also have no idea how a person can get to the point of wanting to abandon or even harm their child. Maybe with only having one child, and being in a supportive relationship with a spouse I am never gonna have to know those feelings. But having over a decade of motherhood behind me, I haven’t once in all that time felt like being without my child would make me happy. I have never once harmed my child (not even a spanking), and would hurt myself before I ever put a finger on my child.

As a person who was harmed by adults, I am very curious why some people choose that route. Comparatively to some I had it very easy, but to others, my life seemed rough. Even with the experiences I have had I would say I am lucky. I have people in my life who love me, and I have a good and happy life.

It is so important to know that you can decide to be better. We have to do better for our children…teach them how to do better for themselves. Instead we make it easier for those who would do harm to the most defenseless and innocent victims. At this point in our evolution we should not be going in reverse, and yet the more time passes the worse humanity seems.

Agreeing with HIM is inexcusable! You are supposed to be on HER side! You know how he can be, says different things to fit his mood. I really think you need to reevaluate your decision making processes. Think of how this must feel to her, can you do that? Better to not tie yourself to a sinking ship.

Super excited for the Janet Evanovich movie that is coming out in January One For The Money. It looks like it will be good. Katherine Heigel is set to star as Stephanie Plum and I think she is a pretty good person for the role. Supposedly Reese Witherspoon was up for the role and declined it. I love her, but cannot for the life of me, see her in that role. She was gorgeous as June Carter Cash in walk the line. She doesn’t scream brunette Jersey girl to me! Katie Heigel seems to be made for this part however.

As a resident in the state of Kansas I am sad to learn that Topeka(the capital of my state) will no longer charge people for Domestic Battery. That is happening because they claim they no longer have the money to pay for the prosecution. They did this in the hopes of the cases being taken over by Shawnee County District Attorney. When the district attorney took over these cases, they claimed it cost them too much as well. So if you beat your family in my state…completely legal!

As someone who has seen the damaging effects of domestic violence I am very worried about this. If there is no consequences for beating the shit out of those you love, more and more of people are going to end up in hospitals and in the morgue. I can’t cuss in front of a stranger without the risk of being charged with something, but taking out my bad mood on the folks who live me…perfectly ok! I am so scared for the way this is heading.

I have never once been ashamed of the place I come from, but now I don’t know if I can say that.

After several months of putting up with my boss from hell, I told her to stick it and am thus unemployed. After the relief wore off, I came to the realization that even though the job was a shitty cesspool of suckage…it was still a source of income. So now I am trying to figure out what I will be doing now.

My dad’s surgery went well, and it looks like I will be babysitting him. So the endless time I spend ignoring my mother will now be a daily occurance for a few weeks (being unable to ignore her), She never leaves unless she is forced too…which will upset him. What will I do to get rid of her? Always open to suggestions…

1st day of school for the Kiddo…Hard to believe that she is a teenager! I can’t picture where these last years have gone so fast. She does seem more prepared for this year (mentally), so I am hoping for the best for her. We have been struggling with her since 2nd grade! Maybe this is the year it all comes together for her. With Honey’s help, she is gonna kick ass.

Honey has been so awesome with her about her schoolwork…they are very similar, so it makes sense that he would know how best to help her. It is almost scary how alike those two are…but if that means he has a unique perspective on how to help her, then I am doubly grateful.

So the really annoying thing about having new neighbors is that they bring an element of chaos for the 1st few weeks they live next to you. The neighbors we had on one side chain smoked and made my home smell like an old ashtray. Instead of getting rid of them…they now occupy the unit on the other side of our home (we got rid of the Hawaiian hyper quartet of boys). So the people who moved into the Camel Castle seem to be a family of four (Mom, Dad, teenage girl, and a young-ish (between 6-10) boy. You can hear them talking, they slam the front door when they go in and out, and when they kids walk on the stairs…I can tell whether they are going you or down and they seem to stomp and run. They start early (before 7am) and they don’t stop until after midnight. I hate to say anything to the landlord, cause I don’t want to seem like I bitch about everything (no comments from the peanut gallery). I tried to let them know they were being disruptive on Thursday night (after 1130pm), and they refused to answer the damn door. They had better not keep this shit up after school starts next week! If they wake me its one thing, but if they wake the Kiddo…I will crawl so far up their asses I will be able to count their fillings in their teeth!!!

So at work I was looking over our expenses and I found 2 vendors that were being troublesome. One was almost double billing us and the other owes us over 8500 dollars! Instead of turning a profit from this partnership…we have lost almost 11,ooo! That is an awesome black hole of financial fuck up! Well, the reward I received was I got snarled at and told to finish it in one day. Well, ya know I work my ass off. I do the work of 2 people and I get paid less than half of what the person who used to do 1 part of my current position! I had to do the requested info(before this week) when I had spare time. I don’t often have spare time. This affiliate has been in a relationship with our company for over 3 years. So why is it that I am the first person to see the problem here?!? Why do you think its ok to be a huge bitch when I am trying to save you money? And I didn’t have to say anything about the shortcomings of this pairing…but I don’t roll that way.

I guess having a conscience is my burden to bear!

Very few things in life really get me confused…but the one thing that really throws me for a loop is lazy parents! I am so enamored with the Kiddo that people who throw away their children (either literally or figuratively) make me very angry! I am very lucky in that I am married to a wonderful person who loves my Kid as much as I do. But Kiddo’s Bio-father is kinda an ass.

He is killing the love his kid has for him and when I try and tell him that, he blames her! Like if he was important to her, she would make an effort! Well, the only experience she has with having a relationship with him, is seeing him barely 6x a year and him calling her (and really going to lengths to get a hold of her) only when he is pissy bout something. He calls her phone and leaves her a message. Well, if she doesn’t answer he can always call me and ask to either speak to her or have me tell her he wants to chat. But NO!…he just says “Oh Well!”. She is the child…it is his job to determine the relationship he wants with her.

Then I go to anger because he doesn’t put as much into parenting as I do. He can go days or even weeks without any contact with her. The only time he makes an effort is if she has a horse show, or its a holiday(and even then if it isn’t his turn to have her…she won’t hear from him). He lives his life as if she isn’t around…then wants to bitch at her for not paying attention to him. He makes a plan for his life and if she “fits into it” then GREAT! If she doesn’t, oh well.

I wish either he would be a 50/50 contributer or just go away and let me raise her with Honey. She is so lucky to have a very active step-father. At least she gets that example of a good father figure. Her step dad in 5yrs has missed only 1 or 2 major events. Her Bio Father has missed most all of them (unless of course his Mommy was footing the bill).

The horseback riding is kinda the only thing Bio Father and his mom care bout. They go to all the shows and help with hair and makeup for all the girls and act like the “perfect parents (insert oedipal reference here)”. So when Honey and I show up it ruins their image. When we go to shows and people always compliment us on the Kiddo, the 2 of them just eat it up! Even though neither of them had a damn thing to do with the considerate, sweet, caring, and intelligent young woman I have raised!!!

That’s ok, when the Kiddo hits 18 I am sure she will either ignore the 2 of them or tell them 2 go to hell. I vote for doing both!!! She doesn’t need them…she has 2 good (full-time) parents in Honey and I!

They will get theirs one of these days…and I will laugh my ass off.

I love it when I have an issue and people tell me not to worry about it. There was a situation last week that had me in tears at work (not something I do normally), and I was told to just forget about it and that the person was just mad. Well, when it happens to someone else here…everyone is outraged! Talking bout how the person should be fired and it was wrong. That victim #2 was his friend, so it was hurtful and out of left field. But if I dare say for them to brush it off…then I’m a son of a bitch also. This sucks. I didn’t expect everyone to make a circle of love and support around me, but to be told basically to get over it. And then when it happens to someone else…its time to rally the wagons and hugs all around. I’m sorry, that a bunch of bullshit! Not that victim #2 deserved to be spoken to that way (not acceptable at all) either, but why is it now such a major deal and last week it was just the driver blowing off steam? I already have to struggle and fight every day to even want to come to this place, then something like this happens and I hate it all the more.

It is so much better to not give a shit bout anyone at work, let the dogs fend for themselves. God knows its every man for himself! But I will say this much…I will not terminate his dumb ass…oh no! Then he can sit at home with his shitty attitude and collect unemployment off of me?!? I THINK NOT! But I do know how to make someone so miserable they want to quit…and I shall! *evil grins*