Agreeing with HIM is inexcusable! You are supposed to be on HER side! You know how he can be, says different things to fit his mood. I really think you need to reevaluate your decision making processes. Think of how this must feel to her, can you do that? Better to not tie yourself to a sinking ship.

Super excited for the Janet Evanovich movie that is coming out in January One For The Money. It looks like it will be good. Katherine Heigel is set to star as Stephanie Plum and I think she is a pretty good person for the role. Supposedly Reese Witherspoon was up for the role and declined it. I love her, but cannot for the life of me, see her in that role. She was gorgeous as June Carter Cash in walk the line. She doesn’t scream brunette Jersey girl to me! Katie Heigel seems to be made for this part however.

As a resident in the state of Kansas I am sad to learn that Topeka(the capital of my state) will no longer charge people for Domestic Battery. That is happening because they claim they no longer have the money to pay for the prosecution. They did this in the hopes of the cases being taken over by Shawnee County District Attorney. When the district attorney took over these cases, they claimed it cost them too much as well. So if you beat your family in my state…completely legal!

As someone who has seen the damaging effects of domestic violence I am very worried about this. If there is no consequences for beating the shit out of those you love, more and more of people are going to end up in hospitals and in the morgue. I can’t cuss in front of a stranger without the risk of being charged with something, but taking out my bad mood on the folks who live me…perfectly ok! I am so scared for the way this is heading.

I have never once been ashamed of the place I come from, but now I don’t know if I can say that.

After several months of putting up with my boss from hell, I told her to stick it and am thus unemployed. After the relief wore off, I came to the realization that even though the job was a shitty cesspool of suckage…it was still a source of income. So now I am trying to figure out what I will be doing now.

My dad’s surgery went well, and it looks like I will be babysitting him. So the endless time I spend ignoring my mother will now be a daily occurance for a few weeks (being unable to ignore her), She never leaves unless she is forced too…which will upset him. What will I do to get rid of her? Always open to suggestions…

1st day of school for the Kiddo…Hard to believe that she is a teenager! I can’t picture where these last years have gone so fast. She does seem more prepared for this year (mentally), so I am hoping for the best for her. We have been struggling with her since 2nd grade! Maybe this is the year it all comes together for her. With Honey’s help, she is gonna kick ass.

Honey has been so awesome with her about her schoolwork…they are very similar, so it makes sense that he would know how best to help her. It is almost scary how alike those two are…but if that means he has a unique perspective on how to help her, then I am doubly grateful.

So the really annoying thing about having new neighbors is that they bring an element of chaos for the 1st few weeks they live next to you. The neighbors we had on one side chain smoked and made my home smell like an old ashtray. Instead of getting rid of them…they now occupy the unit on the other side of our home (we got rid of the Hawaiian hyper quartet of boys). So the people who moved into the Camel Castle seem to be a family of four (Mom, Dad, teenage girl, and a young-ish (between 6-10) boy. You can hear them talking, they slam the front door when they go in and out, and when they kids walk on the stairs…I can tell whether they are going you or down and they seem to stomp and run. They start early (before 7am) and they don’t stop until after midnight. I hate to say anything to the landlord, cause I don’t want to seem like I bitch about everything (no comments from the peanut gallery). I tried to let them know they were being disruptive on Thursday night (after 1130pm), and they refused to answer the damn door. They had better not keep this shit up after school starts next week! If they wake me its one thing, but if they wake the Kiddo…I will crawl so far up their asses I will be able to count their fillings in their teeth!!!

So at work I was looking over our expenses and I found 2 vendors that were being troublesome. One was almost double billing us and the other owes us over 8500 dollars! Instead of turning a profit from this partnership…we have lost almost 11,ooo! That is an awesome black hole of financial fuck up! Well, the reward I received was I got snarled at and told to finish it in one day. Well, ya know I work my ass off. I do the work of 2 people and I get paid less than half of what the person who used to do 1 part of my current position! I had to do the requested info(before this week) when I had spare time. I don’t often have spare time. This affiliate has been in a relationship with our company for over 3 years. So why is it that I am the first person to see the problem here?!? Why do you think its ok to be a huge bitch when I am trying to save you money? And I didn’t have to say anything about the shortcomings of this pairing…but I don’t roll that way.

I guess having a conscience is my burden to bear!

Very few things in life really get me confused…but the one thing that really throws me for a loop is lazy parents! I am so enamored with the Kiddo that people who throw away their children (either literally or figuratively) make me very angry! I am very lucky in that I am married to a wonderful person who loves my Kid as much as I do. But Kiddo’s Bio-father is kinda an ass.

He is killing the love his kid has for him and when I try and tell him that, he blames her! Like if he was important to her, she would make an effort! Well, the only experience she has with having a relationship with him, is seeing him barely 6x a year and him calling her (and really going to lengths to get a hold of her) only when he is pissy bout something. He calls her phone and leaves her a message. Well, if she doesn’t answer he can always call me and ask to either speak to her or have me tell her he wants to chat. But NO!…he just says “Oh Well!”. She is the child…it is his job to determine the relationship he wants with her.

Then I go to anger because he doesn’t put as much into parenting as I do. He can go days or even weeks without any contact with her. The only time he makes an effort is if she has a horse show, or its a holiday(and even then if it isn’t his turn to have her…she won’t hear from him). He lives his life as if she isn’t around…then wants to bitch at her for not paying attention to him. He makes a plan for his life and if she “fits into it” then GREAT! If she doesn’t, oh well.

I wish either he would be a 50/50 contributer or just go away and let me raise her with Honey. She is so lucky to have a very active step-father. At least she gets that example of a good father figure. Her step dad in 5yrs has missed only 1 or 2 major events. Her Bio Father has missed most all of them (unless of course his Mommy was footing the bill).

The horseback riding is kinda the only thing Bio Father and his mom care bout. They go to all the shows and help with hair and makeup for all the girls and act like the “perfect parents (insert oedipal reference here)”. So when Honey and I show up it ruins their image. When we go to shows and people always compliment us on the Kiddo, the 2 of them just eat it up! Even though neither of them had a damn thing to do with the considerate, sweet, caring, and intelligent young woman I have raised!!!

That’s ok, when the Kiddo hits 18 I am sure she will either ignore the 2 of them or tell them 2 go to hell. I vote for doing both!!! She doesn’t need them…she has 2 good (full-time) parents in Honey and I!

They will get theirs one of these days…and I will laugh my ass off.

I love it when I have an issue and people tell me not to worry about it. There was a situation last week that had me in tears at work (not something I do normally), and I was told to just forget about it and that the person was just mad. Well, when it happens to someone else here…everyone is outraged! Talking bout how the person should be fired and it was wrong. That victim #2 was his friend, so it was hurtful and out of left field. But if I dare say for them to brush it off…then I’m a son of a bitch also. This sucks. I didn’t expect everyone to make a circle of love and support around me, but to be told basically to get over it. And then when it happens to someone else…its time to rally the wagons and hugs all around. I’m sorry, that a bunch of bullshit! Not that victim #2 deserved to be spoken to that way (not acceptable at all) either, but why is it now such a major deal and last week it was just the driver blowing off steam? I already have to struggle and fight every day to even want to come to this place, then something like this happens and I hate it all the more.

It is so much better to not give a shit bout anyone at work, let the dogs fend for themselves. God knows its every man for himself! But I will say this much…I will not terminate his dumb ass…oh no! Then he can sit at home with his shitty attitude and collect unemployment off of me?!? I THINK NOT! But I do know how to make someone so miserable they want to quit…and I shall! *evil grins*

Poppie Lee Ichrist 12-15-96/07-01-11 I love you so very much my treasured friend! We will see you soon.

I lost my doggie friend today

She went to sleep for good

She was not well nor happy now

To ease her suffering I should

Let her sleep for good this time

Put to rest her pain

She’s been so brave and fought so hard

Her efforts not in vain.

But oh my pain has just begun

For the loss of my furry friend

I feel she has gone on to play

Waiting for to see us again.

 

HAVE YOU A DOG IN HEAVEN?

Have you a dog in Heaven, Lord?
And do you pat its head?
Does she sit up and beg each night
before she goes to bed?

Does she look up with shining eyes
when she sees Your smiling face?
Does she wag her whip like tail
when she wants to run a race?

Have You a dog in Heaven, Lord?
Is there room for just one more?
Cause my little doggie died today;
She’ll be waiting at Your door.

Please take her into Heaven, Lord.
And keep her there for me,
just feed her, pet her,love her, Lord,
thats all she’ll ask of Thee.

 

Creation

When God had made the earth and sky,
the flowers and the trees,
He then made all the animals
the fish, the birds and bees
And when at last He’d finished
not one was quite the same.
He said I’ll walk this world of mine
and give each one a name.
And so He traveled far and wide
and everywhere He went,
a little creature followed Him
until its strength was spent.
When all were named upon the earth
and in the Sky and Sea,
the little creature said “Dear Lord,
there’s no name left for me.”
Kindly the Father said to him
“I’ve left you to the end.
I’ve turned my own name back to front
And called you DOG, my friend”. -Author Unknown

 

Just My Dog

She’s just my dog.
She is my other eyes that can see above the clouds;
My other ears that hear above the winds.
She is the part of me that can reach out into the seas.
She has told me a thousand times over that I am her reason for being.
By the way she rests against my leg.
By the way she thumps her tail at my smallest smile.
By the way she shows her hurt when I leave without taking her.
When I am wrong, she is delighted to forgive.
When I am angry, she clowns to make me smile.
When I am happy, she is joy abound.
When I am a fool, She ignores it.
When I succeed, she brags.
Without her, I am only another person.
With her, I am all powerful.
She has promised to wait for me…whenever…
In case I need her; and I expect I will—
As I always have.
She is my dog.

 

An Owner’s Plea

Please, God, if You should hear a scratch on Eden’s Gate tonight,
A gentle whine, a muffled bark; have Peter take a light
And open up the Pearly Gates and call her Spirit in,
For I think she lived in Heaven once; please take her back again.

She may have been a mongrel, without a pedigree,
Yet she was noble, kind and good; I think You will agree:
That she’ll be very useful where the souls of children play.
She’ll romp with them, and see; Dear God; they do not go astray.

Just tell her that we’re sorry that we could not pat her head,
And whisper how we loved her ‘ere her Spirit fled.
I pray that when death beckons, and my soul surmounts life’s fog,
I’ll rate a place in Heaven, Dear God, beside our dog…

 

Heaven’s Doggy-Door

My best friend closed her eyes today,
As her head was in my hand.
The Doctors said she was in pain,
And it was hard for her to stand.

The thoughts that scurried through my head,
As I cradled her in my arms.
Were of her younger, puppy years,
And Oh…her many charms.

Today, there was no gentle nudge
With an intense “I love you gaze”,
Only a heart that’s filled with tears
Remembering our joy filled days.

But an Angel just appeared to me,
And he said, “You should cry no more,
GOD also loves our canine friends,
He’s installed a ‘doggy-door’!!!

I am so sick and tired of people assuming or treating me like I am a mindless idiot. I don’t know alot about anything, but I know a little about many things. I try and not offer an opinion on things unless I may actually know what I’m talking bout. But constantly people ignore my ideas, dismiss my suggestions, or downright tell me I’m wrong…only to come back later and find out I’m not as stupid as you assume I am!!!

When I just refuse to say anything(cause I know what the outcome will be), then it is suggested I’m being snarky or pissy. Just tired of wasting my breath, that’s all.

Someone has actually asked for my help and I told them a course of action I thought would be appropriate, and they argued and then took the exact same advice from someone else! WTF?!?

I’m just so tired…sick of feeling like poo poo all the time. Maybe I’m being over sensitive, but this is my site and I’ll whine if I want too!!! Yes, you caught that alright…I’M BEING SNARKY!

On a positive note…I got a really cool achievement on Warcraft last night. I got one called “What a long strange trip its been!”. It means I have accomplished all the holiday achievements from an entire year’s worth of holidays. I started going for this in October ’09. Glad I finally got it done. Someone’s reaction to that news was that all I ever do is sit and play WoW…FUCK YOU! You know who you are. None of your goddamn business what I do with my time!!! Never has been and never will be! If you don’t like it you can shove it up your ass. Just sayin.

So ,as a parent, it is my job to take care of my kids. Knowing this is in my job description… part of that includes; food, shelter, clothing education,love and HEALTHCARE! When my child needs medical attention or medication, has allergies (food, environment, etch…) or dislikes…it is my job to know those and provide accordingly. So when you are a parent you should know all of this about each of your children. I have to say it irritates me to share these responsibilities with someone who refuses to put as much work into as I do.

I say this because I happen to be acquainted with an individual who I am having this struggle with. Why on earth do I have to keep telling you this shit?!? Take care of my damn kid or stay the hell away from her! Every time she comes home I have to play catch up. 9 times out of 10 she is either sick or injured and nothing has been done to take care of her. Very frustrating to be the only parent!

Well she just came home and (true to form) she is covered in 15-20 bug bites(she is allergic to mosquitoes) cause he didnt put bug spray on her while they worked out in the yard. Oh and she pulled a muscle in her neck (for the 2nd time in 2 months) and she wasn’t given any anti inflammatory medicine. I am so sick of this shit! If being with him wasn’t what she wanted (every now and again), she would so be mine 100% of the damn time (instead of the 99% of the time I usually have her)!!!

Enough of my ranting…July 4th is just around the corner and I am so looking forward to fireworks!